I’m 2 years short of the big 3 ‘O’ and life has been fairly kind to me. I feel blessed, up till this point but somehow there’s something creeping inside that irks the living shit outta me.
Been thinking lots of ‘ what ifs’ and ‘what not’ , how I can improve to be a better person,
how to make the people around me happier, and how to make myself happier at the same time.
I can say that I grew stronger, emotionally wise.
I don’t hide my feelings anymore and proud that I’m learning to share it with a few close friends. It’s a big lift on the shoulders to just share secrets with people you can trust. Amazing, speaking from a big introvert sucker. History.
As the age catch up, I guess, it’s also time to change.
Recently, there’s a few things on my mind. Career, love and friends.
I’ll jot this down so the future me would read it and share it with his wife =)
as corny as it may sound, I think this is gonna set as a reminder of what life I had when I’m 28 years old.
Career
I’m entering my last week in DHL. It’s been a year and 6 months till to date. Awesome colleagues that I’ll definitely miss. I must say, so far, all my colleagues have been nice to me , even from my previous work place.
My boss been wonderful, he plays futsal with me and talks like a pai kia. My makan buddy, Eddy, who’s a malay btw, shares his ‘wonderful’ stories with me. We go dating everyday and I’m gonna miss our ‘pumping’ sessions.
Cool guy, definitely will miss him since he’s the closest to me. A few malay girls who’s been nothing but lunch buddy. Talks non-stop, always comes up with dirty – silly – notorious jokes to crack our department.
Yeap, definitely gonna miss ‘em.
It’s been a great experience working here in DHL. A stepping stone to many great achievements and I’m glad I took this road where I would not have thought about it back when I was in high school or college. How did I ended up here? God knows, but I truly believe in faith and faith alone. I do hope that one day , faith will crosspath our lives again and we will meet again soon.
I’ll be starting my job in Schenker 1st July.
This will be my 5th job and I’m planning for a long run. Looks promising, a change in the working environment and perhaps I’ll find my satisfaction there.
Friends and family
I get emotionally attached to the friends I have. Sad to say , I think they are closer to me then my family ever will.You know you just can’t talk openly to your parents about love or current issues. Reason to this, is because I’ve burden them enough , so I wouldn’t want them to worry another second about me anymore. (I know they still do, that’s how parents work)
Brighter note, I’m always happier at home, its the one place where it can’t go wrong. Home sweet home right? And adding to that, there’s a new baby at home!! Yay, super cute. Her name’s Yvvone and she has puffy, rosy red cheeks worth dying for. Hehe. She’s mainly my highlight of the day.
Mom is healthy and Dad has toned down over the years. I’m glad that my parents have quality time these days although I hope that we can go out again like we used to back when I was 13. We used to hang out alot at shopping malls and restaurants.I guess we outgrew them =(
Calling my friends as friend is under statement. Although, very often we can get fickle minded on where to eat, what to do, where to go on weekends, but at the end of the day we somehow manage to whip something out of nothing and enjoy ourselves. Now, that’s what I called impromptu entertainment. We still do silly lil things together, but decided cut down on clubbings and meeting new people. Let’s face it, we ain’t that young anymore, so we’ve decided to watch the knees and kidney. There’s no new additional to the group. It’s a private club for the elites of nerdism and anyone who wants to gain entry needs to wield a lightsaber .
Hah, I’m glad I’m not that nerdy. Computer games still in picture. Dota now version - 6.67C.
I’m worried for WH these days. There’s signs of depression lingering around. I hope he gets better soon.
World cup fever is back, LOTS of upsets and heartbreaks. Italy could only manage 2 draws in their 2 outings thus far. Dissapointing but no regrets supporting them. Funny thing is, my heart rate beats twice as fast when Italy plays. I’ve been supporting them through thick and thin ever since the Divine Ponytail , Roberto Baggio ballooned his penalty kick on a world cup final that hand Brazil the cup </3. From that day onwards, he was my idol because he showed the world that its okay to fall from grace sometimes, you just have to find a way to come back stronger.
Handful of my friends still make fun of me whenever they watch back glimpses of that agony pose of my beloved idol. How inconsiderate =)
Love
This has always been my kryptonite. I wish I can be like Ted Mosby and tell those stories like ‘How I Met your Mother’. I’ve only fallen in love twice and that’s it. Phobia.
I’ve come to a point where being alone is so comfortable I might as well stay single for as long as possible. Of course there’re days where I feel lonely, longing for a hug, and maybe just listening to a familiar voice over the phone after a long day at work.
Things get a tad complicated when it comes to love or being in love.
I wonder how big our heart is to say enough is enough. Guess the only way to find out is to keep trying till the right one fits in.
“Everybody will find a way to hurt you, you just have to find the right one worth sacrificing for” – Bob Marley
